czwartek, 15 października 2015

1. - The one where things have to change.

Hey. I haven't been here since... I don't even remember. This blog was on of the million other ones, where every teenager wanted to become popular, get free stuff or not, but for sure have a lot of comments and people observing. I today decided that it is the time to change. This old blog will remind me who I was and what I wanted from live and who I am today. I thought about deleting all this stuff. Then, no, it is a part of me. Me from the past of course, but still. Then, maybe I should delete all old notes. No, I'm not ready. Maybe in the future. Meanwhile, this blog, personal diary will be my safe house. My difficult road to become happier. Starting today! No, I won't start exercise, it only super healthy food and so on. No. I want to just try to be pleased. Be happy. Be... I don't know. Just not all the time sad, because something went wrong. Starting today, I will be posting here positive quotes of the day/week/month ( we'll see how long I will be able to stick around here ).
Have a nice day !

wtorek, 17 marca 2015

One thing gets better, the other one gets worse.

I hope that on Friday I will be able to say "FINALLY!". But more about that not today. I'm not comfortable about the changes that are about to be in the place where I work. I'm not a cute girl. I do not know how to use the sock bun! I'm terrible at it, I do not feel pretty in it and all... HOW THE HELL DO THAT ! Anyone will explain to me in a reaaaally reallly simple way?

czwartek, 12 marca 2015

The mistakes of my life?

Are there anyone who thinks that make poor life choices? It feels for a while that my choice of studying English wasn't the right one. Maybe it is because I have to work and study and do many homework and my chances to find job after are as small as my roommate's who study sth like "I have a small group of people who barely have classes and don't have to anything because no one give's a shit and still when end-of-term examinations comes I have to fail and something because it is sooo fuckin hard". You understand why this is so annoying? Also, no I don't see myself as a teacher. Maybe in private school or those language schools or as tutor. I know, there is no point to worry and think about all this stuff because it will change a hundreds of times, ups and downs and etc. And I should say - oh, I'm an optimist, everything will be okay, sun is shining, bird are singing and I have where to come back. But so many people have the same and this is not an explanation for me. Resigning now, in the middle of the studies seems as a waste of time, not much of us left since the beginning. But what should I do next to finally say - hey! this is it! I'm simply happy with all that is going around me.
Maybe... maybe somewhere else, in another country, for an average people like me is still life better than here? I wonder but I'm not brave enough.
Oh, nevemind. This is boring to read. Only an optimists, skinny or cloths related blogs are interesting.